A light...

As i sat in bible study last night, we discussed mercy and grace, which of course led to a deeper convo about how we treat others. it also tied in to the topic last week about forgiving our enemies. and it made me begin to think..do we bestow the same grace and mercy on those who do wrong around us? do we forgive our enemies? but even worse, do we forgive our friends and loved ones? what does forgiveness, grace and mercy mean in our lives? i have thought a lot about people who have truly hurt me and i realized that my forgiveness of them was very surface. i realized that there were a few key people that i still harbor ill feelings towards (if you know me, u can probably guess at least 1 or 2 of these people). it made me realize that i still have a lot of work in that department. but that was last week...

so this week, we talked about being a light to others. if someone meets you or knows you, do they know you are a Christian without you telling them or announcing it? do your actions support your beliefs, or do you live two separate lives...Sunday at church vs. Monday thru Saturday night. it made me think about the way i have lived my own life. i feel that when people think of me, they see a good person. someone who is passionate, energetic, intelligent, and overall a caring and compassionate person. but this is what troubled me...when people see me, do they see God? that concerns me because as i look over my life, i feel that people that i've known for an extended period of time may not see that, based on my actions. that is something i am trying to work on because it is no good to have these beliefs but i can't put them into action. if you don't see Christ when you see me, then where is all of my faith going? i can look back over my life and recall very specific people who i see as Spirit-filled people. they were by no means perfect and they made mistakes. but thru it all, God still was obviously in their lives and they tried their best to exemplify that as much as possible.

what will people think of me? will they say that i am Spirit-filled? am i a light?

are you?